Blog #7: Book 4 review

Dear Jase, Sam here, I was thinking so many things from the last time we talked. First things first, when you found out that my best friend Nanny didn’t know about you I just didn’t know how she would take it. I wasn’t at all trying to keep you as a secret from her. I didn’t think she would understand, let alone my mom understanding that I’m dating you. The first time I said the “L” word I did mean it. Do you really think that I would say it if I didn’t mean it? Well I do love you Jase. To be honest I haven’t had this much fun being with someone who accepts me for who I am and understands me different from my best friend. What I’m saying is that I do like being with you. Second thing; the reason I didn’t tell my mother about you is because she would have thrown a fit and blown up on me. She wouldn’t understand what love is until it hit it on her head. She may think she feels it with Clay Tucker, which I doubt she is dating him, because apparently they are the adults here? I’m not for sure what’s going on with her and him lately. They seem to be acting like they are but it doesn’t seem like it since Nanny and I found him flirting with another woman. He says “she’s just a friend” but it doesn’t seem like she is, even though he may have a thing for my mom. The one thing that bothers me is my mother tries to drag me with her to all the press things for her campaigning. With Nanny ignoring me, everything hasn’t been the same. Tim isn’t himself, since he stopped drinking and doing drugs other than smoking; he isn’t him. All along with that pep talk we had at him at your dads work, there wasn’t a good outcome. Is there by any chance that fixing these problem would help us? If you aren’t training or working or fixing your car maybe we can. Everything is out of sorts and I wish things would go back to normal. Again, I’ve told you so many times but I don’t know if you will accept my apology no matter how many times I have said it I really am sorry. I didn’t know my mother did that. I fell asleep in the car and the next thing I know is that we hit something or someone but I had no clue it was your father. Is your family ever going to forgive me for this? Even though I didn’t do anything to your father and I had nothing to do with it. With what all I said to you that got Alice to hate me, I understand that but when that happens we need to talk about this. Every time I try and talk to you she is always there to push me away from trying to fix things between us. I know she is just trying to protect you. But once we do, can we please start over? I understand if you don’t but please at least talk to me about this. I didn’t mean what I said. Once we do, I know some things will go back to normal. Jase I need you I really do need you in my life. While trying to fix things with Nan it’s not going so well with her ignoring me still but I know once these things are fixed things will go back the way it’s supposed to be. Yours Truly, Samantha Reed